mistreatedstars

so here is the story... what i witnessed atleast... bunches and bunches of people go to this donut shop on a certain night... well i went to see some old friends and make some new ones, the place is restless with chatting of people's breaks and how they went. i sit at a table with my roomate and one of our friends. people come in and say hi and people leave... a few people sit and chat with my roomate and myself. we are all having a gay ole time then it hits about 11:30 and everyone starts piling out. we are like clock work might i add. so my roomate and i are still there doing some homework like good college students do, and there happens to be some of our "mutal friends" sitting at a table with in earshot. (take in that i put that in quotes)... so i am sitting there trying to focus on my paper at hand and my roomate is catching up on her reading for a computer class. the table behind us starts gossiping.. oh joy... they discuss this thing called a kissing tree?!?!? yeah i know right, doesnt sound good from the get go. well one female, we will call her "Y" is seated at this table. she makes a bold statement that she needs to add a branch to her side of the kissing tree... at this moment i slide my head phones on cause i know where this is going and that is murky water between Ms. "Y" and myself. so my dear lovely roomate is left to endure all of this gossip with no help from me whatsoever. i appoligize but i had not done that i would have thrown a rodent threw a window.... so the discuss continues and my roomate proceeded to write down everything that was being said so that i could read it. well lets get to the good juicy part... oh wait i dont gossip... ugh... grow the fuck up and be a college student.. you are two steps from real world and you pull this shit. ummm no. i fall into my music and my poor roomate is left to listen to this bull. so in the next thirty minutes we are sitting there and every single one of my friends in this group of friends i made my freshman year have been put down by this one table, i have a question, what made you supreme god over everyone else that you can sit there and ridicule everyone for their flaws, bad judgement, or even laps of brain cells? hmmm how do you know what is a flaw and what is a bad judgement because from what i can tell only one person was perfect and you sure are not Jesus. so you need to get off your high horse and let me beat your ass for the time being. i hope my words dont affend anyone.. if they do, i dont regret it. i hope all the good people who read this understand my concern and do not look down upon me for writing this.

you cannot walk unless you try, you cannot talk unless you try, you cannot love unless you try.

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stars

i have had my ups and my downs, i am only human. i do not regret because regret is a stab in your soul that you cant take away. live your life like you were seven years old again and you will have no fear.


i am at a cross roads in my life and i seem dumbfounded at the situation at hand. to the right is everything that i have known and to the left is everything mysterious. stay safe or take that chance? what would you do? knowing my personality i would take the mysterious path, but as of a few hours ago i have come to the conclusion that i am tired of my life. i have so many problems and so many people who depend on me because i take that chance daily. i am the kind of person you can lend an ear to and every now and again i ask that you listen to me... ask my roomate. so i ask you kind stranger, go right or go left? since it is up to me i shall let you see which road i take. like robert frost once wrote... the road less traveled has no trails to follow but that is the adventure in itself.

i believe i need to rest now since i am going to make this hard decision so i bid you good night and god bless


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